Right and Wrong

What is "right" and what is "wrong"? Who'll be the one to decide that? How do you judge "right" or "wrong"? Is there really "right" or "wrong" in this world?

Personally, I think there's no right or wrong in this world. Simply because it go against moral or religious belief doesn't mean it's wrong. For example: "You lie to protect someone's feelings. Morally it's wrong, but because you're trying to avoid hurting someone, which is right in sense."

Furthermore, anything that go against social norm is considered "WRONG". People cannot accept new and different things and concepts, anything that's different from them are considered wrong and abnormal. I don't know why is this happening, but probably because they afraid of change or fear of rejection. For instance, homosexuality. This type of relationships are often considered wrong, although it's legal in some country, but you can still see the social prejudices. It's not "normal", so it's wrong, people just cannot accept it. They don't have any concrete facts to prove it's "unnatural" anyway, except for the "HOLY BIBLE" crap. (I like to debate, so...)

For me, I trust my conscience. I do what I think is right for ME, that is, without hurting others. Parents told me not to do this and that, but I often make the judgement by myself, usually I don't listen to them (I know I'm naughty, can't helped it).

Trust your instinct, and think rationally, don't be affected by what's wrong or right, it might be right for them, but it's not necessary right for you. And remember don't harm any innocent people, it's not fair for them. Just be true to yourself.

I might missed out something, please remind me if I do.

Have a nice and happy day.

Being needy...

Recently... I've become quite needy towards my friend. Maybe I'm excited about our friendship, or I just wanna chat with someone. Nonetheless, this is not the usual me... I need to stop.

I'm usually independent, but... I've grown needy during this holidays... What is affecting me? I need to control myself seriously. I felt that some friend are started to distance me. I'm sorry my friend. I don't mean it...

Being needy is the major turn-off for almost everyone. No one likes a needy person. People feel irritated around a needy friend, it's very annoying. Besides that, being needy drains others mentally and physically, people will worn out after some time... And eventually, they'll stop being friends with you...

Why are people being needy? Probably because of excitement over new friendship or relationship... Friendship and relationship take time to build, often we hope it could progress faster by being needy... But it's not gonna work, trust me. You're destroying the relationship.

Or simply because you feel bored. Feeling of emptiness, wanted to be loved constantly, want attention badly are signs of being needy... Sometimes you messege someone, hope they could reply ASAP, but they don't, so you send more and more, it's annoying. Seriously, people are just busy, they got much better things to do than paying attention to you, not as free as you, just occupy yourself with something... People need space, they have their own life too.

I misunderstood you, I'm very sorry. I hope you could forgive me...
不是你变了，是我。谢谢你让我领悟了一些很重要的道理...

Have a nice day.

Unusual normal.

This is the blog entry for 16 December 2010.

Well, today is kinda in a hurry mainly because I'm working. Gerald is coming back from KL to Penang as he's having a break from his studies, so he invited some friends to hangout together.

Today is my "lucky" day! I get the first ever "saman" in my whole life and it was nicely delivered by "Polis Diraja Malaysia" to my car which parked near to my grandma's house. I feel stupid. The offence is "causing unnecessary road obstruction." I wonder if that road ever traversed by a car though...

Sigh, nevermind that. I guess it happens once in a lifetime. I was driving and the road is jammed. Nonetheless, I still reached there. Sadly, Gerald and Alvin are going home. So I urged Weihun to leave later...

I'm quite hungry even after munching down a set of Fish-o-fillet from McDonald's , so me and Weihun find something else to eat. Although we're kinda indecisive that time, I still make a decision to go to BB Steamboat. Same old place, we have a 2 person steamboat as our dinner. The chrysanthemum tea tasted so good, because it's home brewed!

I'm kinda paiseh that Weihun treated me for that meal, because I'm in the black lately... Anyhow, we chat a lot, and it feels great! It's been a long time that I had a so comfortable and relaxed with a friend... I really appreciate and treasure the moment we have back there.

We have a walk in 1st Avenue, many shops are not opening yet. The Parkson at 1st Avenue is so unique! It looks very relaxing and quite artistic, compared to the one located in Prangin Mall. And there are some relaxing chair for tired shoppers, it feels comfy too.

We decided to go back after looking around 1st Avenue. After going to the roof where our car are parked at, somehow we still don't want to go back so early...

Suddenly, Weihun have an idea of chatting on the car park, since the windy weather and the open view of the sky. It's rather unusual to sit and chat on a parking lot... So we chat sitting on the lot, although people might think we're crazy... The view above the building is so nice, the lights and roads, and the tranquil silence on the building... But still it came to an end, we parted and go back home respectively.

I've learned something new from Weihun today, and I really appreciate the moment we have. We leave good memories everyday in our life I guess...

Hope everyone have a great day! Treasure every moment you have now...

So very extremely puzzled...

Lately... I've been thinking the purpose of my life. Well, I'm kinda lost, wondering what should I do next. Somehow, I feel like I'm wasting my life now... Maybe I could use the time to do something more meaningful, so that I don't regret later on. Any suggestion how to spend holidays usefully and meaningfully?

Anyway... The point of this post is about the thought of sexuality. I don't usually talk about this to anyone, mostly because of my somewhat conservative parents. Some people think I'm gay, I mean do I looks like one?? Seriously, even myself don't know about that.

During this sixth form life, many of my friends are in a relationship already. I wonder if that's a good thing or not, because they usually break up in the end, and suicide cases because of this matter are also increasingly common now. I'm kinda afraid that they are involved...

To be truthful, I don't have special feelings for girls yet. I'm really puzzled. Maybe I'm gay? Christians say being gay is abnormal, and it's a sin, you'll go to hell if you do that (not that I care anyway). I think I'm not ready for relationship yet, but I hope I can get some opinion though.

Anyhow, everything it's still a possibility though, what if I'm single forever? What will my parents think? Will people hate me if I really "turned" gay? I just don't know. I hope I'm "normal" though, but it's not something I could control. Btw, there's one girl confessed to me, but I rejected... I don't know her well and she's a bit mentally unstable... Am I cruel??

I need help, I've lost myself. What am I anyway?

Have a nice day.

True feelings.

I love company, but I don't like crowds. All I wanted is someone that I could trust, and be there for me. People think I'm a loner, shy or maybe anti-social, but the truth is, I like to be alone. Being alone gives me space to reflect on things and cognitions... And I like social interactions too, but not too much.

I'm quiet and don't usually talk a lot, and people ask me why. Those people are usually loud, which I don't like it very much. Why talk so loud and so much? To get attention? I'm usually serious, that's the way I am. It's annoying that people keep asking why I'm so serious and quiet though...

And I seriously abhor overly childish people. They are god damned retarted, and they're usually very lame. Usually are a chatter box, have the ability of talking nonsense constantly, which is very annoying. They way they process information are totally out-of-the world, usually don't understand abstract concepts and take insults as compliment. I really don't understand them, it's like they are living in their own world, because everything around are oblivious to them. How I wish I never met them...

Say... I just met a very trustworthy friend during the trip to Genting Highlands for competition. He's a very nice person and like to joke. Too bad he's not living in Penang though. Hope our friendship would last...

See that guy in the middle? That's him.

I write too much again... Sigh, it's a bad habit to drag when writing... Hope I could change it though...

Have a nice day.

Is this...

Well... For quite a long time that I didn't update my blog... Sixth form is not as easy as I think, if you're going to slack off today, be prepared to screw your own brain up during tomorrow's lesson. New knowledge and information are flowing in endlessly, and they are kinda hard to grasp though... Anyway, my first exam was a total mess.

Do you know that feeling? When your classmates are getting along pretty well, while you're ignored and isolated by them... They are laughing, blahblahblah in front of you, but when you try to blend in, your actions were futile and you felt stupid. I'm kinda disappointed and jealous? Perhaps I'm jealous.

Is the problem lies in me? What have I done wrong? I wonder... Who can tell me anyway? I just hope I could improve myself and I believe that I'm thiking waaaaay too much...

Some guys in my class are so loud and they always "humilate" people whenever they have the opportunity. I guess we can't avoid this kind off people can we? They are virtually everywhere...

I don't know if I'm jealous or not, I'm disappointed. The class that I looked foward to, turned out to be not what I've expected.
I'll stop here now.

Hope whoever reading this are better than I am, and give comments on how can I improve myself.

Invisible crushing force...

I've gotten quite busy and lazy these days, school's homeworks and study stuffs. Long time I didn't update my blog already, but who cares anyway? All those thoughts and experiences I've always wanted to write down has gone, or forgotten to be precise. Kinda regret for being lazy though.

Ever since my birthday has passed, I'm officially 18! And, I've decided to take Form 6 as my further studies. I've gained new perspective of people and things since I've started working. I came to realize that my interpersonal skills sucks, but hey, I'm an introvert! I'm usually quite shy, but trying to hide it. Sometimes I can't stand people who make joke of people, especially myself, but then I've learnt that play along with their joke might be the best thing to do to avoid further embarrsasment. Anyway, that's part of interpersonal thingy.


Another thing is, I felt most people keep quiet around me. Are they don't like me? Or have I done something wrong? I dunno, maybe I sucks at conversing with people, and they felt that they have nothing to say to me. But when they're around my friends, they are talking and laughing. I started to feel jealous and envy. I felt dumb... But what to do?


Studies, particularly science subjects, need time to understand and memorize. But then in CLHS, our fellow classmates are very indomitable, in the way that they don't want to lose. I felt very pressured that, why they are so quick and smart, even though that they did not pay attention in class... Maybe I'm "kia su" also...


Anyway, the invisible crushing force I'm talking about is pressure. I'm very pressured lately, mostly from studies, and relationships, especailly jealousy and envy, some pressure are without a reason... I hope someone would help me overcome jealousy and envy...


Anyhow, I like to write a lot, and probably no one would want to read it anyway. But in conclusion, I started to felt pressured lately, and my interpersonal skills still very amateurish, which brings more stress. In the end, I'm the one who is responsible for myself, and the stress are created by myself, only me alone can solve it right?


Ps: Cheers! Hope you guys don't stressed yourself out like I do...

Praise or criticism?

I've been pressured by many things lately... Mainly because of my studies, can't grasp what the teachers are teaching... But set aside that, how's life goin', folks?

Still the same matter bothering me... Interaction between people, how to communicate with people and many of these related stuffs. We humans are really complicated aren't we? Emotions, thoughts and relations, they're simple but hard to predict and understand aren't they?

I like to listen to people, understand them, it's really interesting. I guess people want and need attention aren't they? Some of them work hard, trying to be the best, or be super annoying, to make sure everyone know them.

But my point is, no matter how lonely you want to be, you still need to socialize to survive izin't it? In my opinion, everyone is different, but we're still the same. We want attention from others, that's why we make friends. True friends are hard to came by, treasure them if you ever have one, it's a very precious gem in our life.

Most of us are the same, suffering, enduring the stress of life. We need some time to relax ourselves, detach from the stress and business of the "real-world". When a friend is depressed or having some bad experiences, offer him/her your time, listen to them, just listen attentively, advice is not necessary needed, you're not a counsellor here, you're a friend. Try to understand them, understand how they feel and their perspective towards things. It will deepen the friendship, and this made you and your friend feels extraodinary.

Some people are mean critics, they judge people and give criticism and insults, at almost everything you do. You'll never do things right with this kind of people around. They are everywhere, there's no way to avoid them. They make fun at people by insulting, criticise people when they've done something wrong. They monopolize every conversation, probe at everyone's relationship, and pretend to be the "know-it-all" person. Actually, these are not a really bad things when done occasionally, but some people do it regularly. They made your BAD day WORST. They destroy your self-esteem and confidence. They made you feel worthless. They disagree with everything you stated. I really hope they could just shut up, just pretend they didn't see you.

Contrarily, why don't people learn how to give people compliment, and give crticism in a good way? I believe that praising, even for a little things the people do, or just their traits, would brighten their day. Of course, it's not praising perfunctorily, it's sincere, not just to make someone feels good, but they deserve it. Complimenting people would make them feel better, and it shows that you care about them. You want them to do better, you still point out their mistakes, but in a good way, not by insulting. Look at the good side of people, give compliment for their good and point out their bad so that they be aware of it, and improve themselves. Praising sincerely it's like magic, it makes other feels good and they might like you and be your friends too. Praising also increase others self-esteem and confidence, which is very important in our life.

I know I like to write a lot, but summing up everything, I hope you can give compliment to someone when they done something nice instead of insults, especially towards your friends. Listen to your friend actively, don't be the counsellor or the "know-it-all" guy the keep giving advice of some sort. Help your friend whenever you can, they would do the same too, if they value the friendship.

Well, I'll stop now, have a nice day guys!

Ps: I really hope that person could be my friend...

Hug, please?

Have you ever wondered, when is the last time you're being hugged by someone you really care about? Your friends, partner and family members, parents especially. For me, I really can't remember the last time I've been hugged, and never hug or being hugged by someone after I've started to going to kindergarten...

Well... From my observation, I've found out that teens now rarely or never give a hug to their parents. Why? I dunno... Cause' I also never hug my parents or brothers consciously... Maybe I might feel awkward and weird... Maybe our culture contribute to this phenomenon...

Sometimes, I have the urge to hug my friend who is especially down or depressed. You know, I really feel bad for doing nothing while you know that your friend needs comfort... I like to listen to people, and understand them, that's the way I make friends. I really wanted to hug them, but I'm afraid that they would feel weird, or feel even more uncomfortable because I'm super skinny...

Some people think that hugging someone means you love them, and that's right! But some people often percive this as only lovers can hug each other. That's why when 2 guys hug each other, they would be 'gay'. Haha, maybe they are, so what? This might be another reason why people don't hug each other, when they really wanted to do, because they don't want misunderstanding, or maybe alienated by other people...

Well, whatever it is, I think hugging is really good! I mean hug with compassion and affection or full with warmth and love, not that superficial or just-for-fun hug. To me, hugging is a way to express and show that you care, you love someone. It's something that words can't discribe, the affections and feelings. Hugging are also proven therapeutic, mentally and physically. And they feels good too~ And hugging not necessarily sexual, although it's used in that way, but the purpose is still the same though.

But why people are not practicing it, given that It brings much benifits. Maybe because it's not as socially acceptable, most people are oversensitive, especially in Asian cultures. But I guess... Just do what you want, but never harm others.

A brief but compassionate hug won't hurt right?

I'll stop for now, after writing so much... I'll give someone a big hug someday, and I'm also hoping someone I cared would give me a hug...

Ps: I guess chubby people are more cuddly~

Lasers!

Light Amplification by Stimulated Emission of Radiation aka Laser are quite dangerous thing if not handled correctly, in my opinion. You see, many people are playing with those red lasers pens or keychains, that's quite alright is some way, as it doesn't have too much power to cause any severe damage.

Although lasers my seems harmless, they are potentially dangerous. Mostly the causes burns through the EM wave they emits. Just now, one of my classmate brought a green laser with him. Well, he's quite a top notch physics student and I'm sure he knows the consequences might caused. But the point is, he's playing with that laser and then my other friends too. I believe he should tell them how powerful his green laser is. Then someone used my N900's camera to capture the laser beam directly:

It's nice izin't it?

See the photo? Nice? Like in Matrix. But whatever, because of this photo, my N900's camera lens get burnt by the laser... Ugh! Heartache!! So let me ask you, the laser burnt my camera lens, how about human's eyes? What if they happened to pointed it directly into other's eyes? It's quite possible that person will suffer optical damages, in severe case, blindness.

Laser is a very dangerous item if not handled correctly, no matter how cheap it is, it's still a laser. Just like a gun or knive, you wouldn't want to mess with it, same goes to lasers. Don't play with lasers, beams of lights might seem harmless, but it might be much more lethal than you'd think.

Well, guess I'll stop now. This is from my personal experience, if you don't agree with it, just do whatever you like, don't regret, I've warned you. My camera... Haiz (T.T)

Complicated simplicity

There are too many things happeneing in our life. Most of them seems really complicated, but they are actually very simple. On the contrary, simple things may look simple, but they're just too complicated to explain... For example, our emotions and feelings. And there are things start very simple, but turn out to be very complicated. Because many simple things will eventually get tangled, and they're very troublesome... Condratictions eh?

Misunderstanding, gossips, rumours, jelousy, hatred, etc., are those who make things complicated. Really, I hate em'. Though it's normal to encounter problems like these in our daily life...

Simple things looks complicated because we're deluded. Complicated are simple when we understand the problem, but most of the time, we tend to think like this: "Oh! It's too complicated! I can't want to solve it!", then procrastinate.

People have different point of views right? What is your opinion on my views then?

Will stop for now. Thanks, readers. Remember to share your thoughts!

Deluded...

I felt really lost recently. It seems I've lost control over my emotion and the way I talk... I felt that I've been deluded by many things, like my thoughts. Thinking about something too much will cause you to over-analyze things, and might lead you to a faulty conclusion. Furthermore, my emotions had caused some ruckus in my mind... And sometimes, I kinda said something I shouldn't (truths), it might be really straightfoward towards others and might hurt them.

Sometimes, I'm really not my real self, because my thoughts and behaviour have been altered by other's view, insults, etc., they made me felt really unconfortable and shy. I think I should really keep quiet, and control myself, even though it's quite hard to do so under these circumstances...

By the way, I'm kinda pressurized by the choices I've to made in my life. In many situation, I really had to made a choice. Really, sometimes it's a dilemma, like something I like to do, bothly. I felt really bewildered and lost... These tangled thoughts kinda made my life disorganized, mental chaos. Argh!! What should I do!?

In the end, the only way is to conquer my laziness! And stop procrastinating! I really doubt myself could do that though... I really hope that I can express these feelings, really hoping that someone would share my burden... Doubt someone would want to spend their time to hear me out though...

Wish everyone can have a nice day, everyday free from tangled thoughts and peer pressure...

Something For You

Go placidly amid the noise and the haste,
and remember what peace there may be in silence.

As far as possible, without surrender,
be on good terms with all persons.
Speak your truth quietly and clearly;
and listen to others,
even to the dull and the ignorant;
they too have their story.
Avoid loud and aggressive persons;
they are vexatious to the spirit.

If you compare yourself with others,
you may become vain or bitter,
for always there will be greater and lesser persons than yourself.
Enjoy your achievements as well as your plans.
Keep interested in your own career, however humble;
it is a real possession in the changing fortunes of time.

Exercise caution in your business affairs,
for the world is full of trickery.
But let this not blind you to what virtue there is;
many persons strive for high ideals,
and everywhere life is full of heroism.
Be yourself. Especially do not feign affection.
Neither be cynical about love,
for in the face of all aridity and disenchantment,
it is as perennial as the grass.

Take kindly the counsel of the years,
gracefully surrendering the things of youth.
Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune.
But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings.
Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.

Beyond a wholesome discipline,
be gentle with yourself.
You are a child of the universe
no less than the trees and the stars;
you have a right to be here.
And whether or not it is clear to you,
no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should.

Therefore be at peace with God,
whatever you conceive Him to be.
And whatever your labors and aspirations,
in the noisy confusion of life,
keep peace in your soul.

With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams,
it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.

From  http://www.fleurdelis.com/desiderata.htm

Ps: I know it's Christianish, but it's quite meaningful.

Communicate with animals!

Howdy, guys! Lately, I've an urge to communicate with animals, so that I could understand what are they thinking and experiencing, and mainly, conversing with them. Seriously, you may think I'm crazy or stupid, that how humans can communicate with animals.

Firstly, most people think of is the gestures and reactions of animals. So when you talk directly to the animal with human language, do you really think that they would understand it? Some might react accrodingly, that's because they are trained, and that's a command. You might have a little understanding through their reactions and gestures towards things, but you can't really tell or ask them.

So I've came up with an idea, telepathy. I believe that living things can communicate telepathically, and so does animals. But realized that we lost our telepathic powers after our childhood, it might be a little hard to gain that ability back. This is because that we are taught to communicate through words, and think logically.

I'm trying to meditate, throw away all thoughts, and those logics. Open up my senses, be ready to accept what animals are trying to tell me. But I've tried it out a few times, and they kinda reacted, and i get some visual senses that I don't understand at all... I guess I need to practice more...

Some people might think I'm weird, and most people doubted human's telepathic powers. I believe it's real, you can try it out sometimes too. Weather it possible or not, simply up to what you believe.

Have a nice day.

Socializing...

Recently, I've felt that I'm kinda sucks at socializing with people. I've rusty sense of humour, although will laugh if someone start a joke. But personally, I think some people are making fun at others and pretend it as a joke. Seriously, they say no offence, but at least give reserve that person's pride. Teasing and insulting each other sometimes is not really a bad thing, but please remain alerted, don't get too far. That's what my observation. I know not everyone is like that, just to remind who ever read my blog.
Anyway, from my personal experience, I really don't like to make fun of others, it might be funny, but you wouldn't know if that person is hurt by your "joke". Most of the people I've met told me I'm very quiet and serious. I can't deny that, as I'm quite reserved when I'm alone. Maybe I'm no good at joking or making fun of others, or maybe I'm too quiet or serious that people might not like me.

I prefer to approach people in a deeper way, because most people intrigued me. I like to ask people about their opinions, their interests and what they like, is that a good way to make friends with others?

I usually wave or saying hi when we came across each other. But some people are quite cool, they simply ignore you or they will give you a freaked-out look. I'm wondering that am I that weird? I hope that they won't hate me because of this... Their reaction embarrased me, like I'm a psycho talking to the air...

Some guys are even weirder, when you trying to greet em', they show you a shocked expression and then they ask you, "are you gay? Do you interested in me?", uh... seriously, do you think that everyone that talk to you want to have a relationship with you? Perhaps that guy is a gay too. Not just guys, gals are like that too. I wonder why are they acting like this...

I see most advice tell us to be yourself and sincere, but some people are just too bad. They take your sincerity as a joke, and kinda insult your personal traits and flaws, I really pissed by their attitude. It's like they never take others' request sincerely, and their attitude force others to pretend themselves to be someone else, so that they would be accepted to their group. But to me, I like people just the way they are, because everyone is special, you can't be someone you aren't, it feels very unnatural and annoying.

I tend to over analyse things, and try to decipher what people are thinking about me, but i guess that's simply pointless. I'm trying to stop this habit, is that a right thing to do?

By the way, some people I've met are quite cool. They give simple replies to my request, like 'ya', 'i think so' or etc. I feel kinda awkward then because of the silence of the conversation. Is that my problem? I really hoped that i can draw out their interest...

Sometimes I felt like a failure... Maybe I've used the wrong way? Or maybe people just don't like who i am... Or should i be more humourous? Any opinions is really welcomed, I really hope that i could improve my socializing skills...

总有一些人...

总有一些人，他们看上去整天都很开心，嘻嘻哈哈的，没有烦恼，像个小孩，
他们会说玩是我最大的乐趣，我很喜欢玩，
我什么都会玩人多的时候他们脸上总挂着笑容，
好多人都会羡慕他们，
然而这其实是他们最悲哀的地方，
他们不想让别人看到自己难过的一面，
更没有能力一个人独处，
因为当夜深人静的时候，
他不知道一个人会发生什么事，
坐在窗前冥想走过的点滴

没有人读的懂他们，
想着想着貌似快乐的他们就会黯然流下一脸的悲伤，
然后自己对自己说：其实也没什么，命运吧！
所以他们就整天逼自己笑，
以此来逃避那些常人所不能不承受的痛苦！

他们貌似很坚强，因为在别人看来，他们什么事都能微笑着去面对，
但事实上他们长着世界上最脆弱的心灵，
只是长期的伪装使得别人很难发现他们内心深处的创伤。
他们其实非常孤独，虽然看到他们时都是在跟一群人谈天说地，
那是因为他们实在不能承受一个人时的折磨！

他们只想简简单单、快快乐乐的活着，
期待并且相信每个人给的笑容都是真心的，
希望身边的人都是真正的喜欢自己。
即使别人小小的意见，也会另他们难过好久，
他们真的真的很介意，介意自己不被人喜欢。
因为，他们总是为别人想的很多，对别人总是比对自己好；
把能对喜欢的人好当做幸福，喜欢别人比喜欢自己多。

他们总是那样，前一秒还伤心的流着泪，
后一秒出现在朋友面前的时候，已经满脸溢着灿烂的笑容。
有人说他们是向日葵，
是的，他们在意的人就像是太阳，
在面对太阳的时候永远是明艳的花瓣，
而太阳照不到的背面，那悲伤藏得那么好，不愿被看见。

他们向往放纵自由的生活，
却必须为了谁很努力的朝另外的一个方向活着，
很累很累，却仍是心甘情愿。
离自己的梦境越来越来远，
不得不面对从未想过的争夺和复杂，恐慌、不知所措。
只有面对最信赖的人时，才会卸下盔甲，委屈的流下眼泪。
因为在他们心里，
笑就是开心，哭就是难过，接近就是喜欢，远离就是讨厌。
但其实不是，他们明白了，
心好伤，眼泪就没忍住。
哭过之后，笑笑得擦干眼泪，说，没关系，我可以做的很好的。

他们好像无所不能，好像总是不会有烦恼，
好像什么问题都能轻而易举的解决，
总是喜欢喜欢出现在流泪的人面前，笑嘻嘻的逗着笑。
而面对自己的问题，他们却茫然无措，
面对自己的悲伤，他们只会躲在人们看不见的角落里慢慢由伤口越裂越大。

他们的想法非常简单，说出来的就是心里所想的，
肚子里不会拐七道八道的小弯，
无心的话可能会引起别人的误解。
所以，请别记恨他们，他们从不愿伤害谁，小小的错误就能让他们懊悔很久。

他们其实非常单纯，甚至你曾经给了他一个微笑他也会一辈子记得你的好，
因此他们的世界观其实也很简单，他们很容易受蛊惑 ，
请不要轻易的伤害他们的感情，
因为一旦伤害了，那就将永远弥补不回来！

如果你身边有这种人请你给予他（她）那怕是凤毛麟角的那点关怀，
让他（她）知道这个世界没有抛弃他们...

From a certain page of Facebook.

Back to nature~

Today, I'm having a morning walk with my friends in Botanical Garden. Since my graduation, I've never wake up this early... The last time I've visited Botanical Garden is last year, during cross country run. It's been a while that I've paid mother nature a visit...


After we arrive there, I've noticed a few things. First, the stalls in front of the gate are gone... Secondly, the landscape on the way to the garden has changed. They are building some road and bridges for people to walk and enjoy the scenery before reaching the garden. By the way, they are building some structure in front of the gate, perhaps a proper shelter for the stalls to do their business.

As usual, it's quite early but the garden is already crowded with people. Although it's morning, the air is not as cold as before, it's warmer... I'm kinda disappointed because I'm coming here to enjoy the natural cold air... Nonetheless, it feels relaxing and refreshing after having a long walk in the garden. The air is filled with the aroma of plants, inhale deeply are quite rejuvenating for my mind and body.

 

Meet my new buddy!

Well, to tell you the truth, the purpose of this walk is for me to spend some time chatting with my friends. Most of my friends now are busy working and studying, some are simply bored and lazy staying at home most of the time. I'm glad that I have an opportunity to spend some time with my friends in a natural environment. Staying in a natural environment make me feel relaxed, and they give me the feeling of carefree and freedom...

I'll stop here now, wish everyone can keep in touch with their friends... You know, some people told me that making friends is easy, but I think keeping them is a challenge to me, a trial of lasting friendship.

Smoked lungs! A tasty treat?

Recently, I've found out some of my colleagues are smokers... And many people I know while I'm working smoked. Even my dad is a smoker too... And I've wondered why smoking is so addictive? It's like once they start, they can't stop! Want them to stop smoking it's like taking their lives away... I know because I've conducted series of experiment on my father~ Ironically, as a parent, they tell us not to smoke as somking will ruin your health but they are doing that daily... Aren't they feared that one day their health is ruined by this habit?

Well, I've ask a few of my colleagues about why are they smoking. They tell me smoking makes you feel satisfied, and some say it makes you feels "high", and some tell me smoking will make you stay awakened. I dunno, some even say it feels like masturbating... I might understand part of it as I'm a video games addict... I see people are willing sacrifice many things to fulfill their own desires, like their own health. But I think it's better than addicted to drugs though...

The point is, some of them started to smoke very early in their life, like during secondary school. And one of my colleague is same age as me, and he smoked a lot. like maybe 3~4 times in an hour. I'm really amazed to see this when I hanging out with my colleagues one day. I've wondered if he experienced some smoking side-effects, probably not... But I'm sure they are cooking their lungs slowly... I've wondered if his parents know about his habit, or maybe his parents allow him to smoke... That's weird though, for parents to allow their childrens smoke...

The thing I'm concerned is not them or their health, it's us, their friends and family that don't smoke. They are willing to sacrifice their own health to satisfy themselves, and there's no way to stop them right? They might make some promises, but I doubt they would keep it though... The reason I'm not concerned about them is because the one who suffered it's not them, it's their friends and family who cared about them... I've found that secondhand "smokers" die earlier than the smokers themselves. I'm not sure about real statistics, but this is my personal observations anyway.

Later their family members get chronic illness because of their smoking habit, and the will probably say something like "Oh!! I shouldn't smoke! I'm really sorry!" or maybe like "Oh God! Why did you let us suffer like this!? I didn't do anything wrong!". Oh I say shut up, regret now is useless, and blaming the gods is pointless too. Everything is caused by yourself! I hope my dad won't be like this though... Probably he would anyway...

So do you like smokers? They smell great aren't they? Or perhaps they would serve some "tasty" smoked lungs that they prepared for so long... Think before you act, don't prepare your smoked lungs for your family members, they ain't tasty, they cause miseries...

Mean & picky niggard!

Today, I've met the widely detested customer at the restaurant I worked at. That customer, an middle aged woman, which is black-listed by my colleagues as a mean and picky niggard... At first I don't really believe it as it was kinda funny, but today I've served her! Well, at first I smiled at her, and her respond is "why are you smiling to me? It's very retarted you know?". I was very annoyed by her attitude, and you know what, she is as ugly as her words! Then she placed some order and complained about our foods are not tasty and she does not like it... I've wondered why she is even here... Then she ordered a beer and then I served the beer to her, then she blocked the glass with her hands and her mobile phone. The she ask me to pour the beer for her, and how am I supposed to do that!? And now I understand why they hate her so much, as she opened her mouth, insults and complaints are splashed on your face harshly... What a mean woman she is!

She reminded me someone I know, which attitude is almost identical to hers. He would sue a worker of a company for not refilling soft drinks for him! Isn't it ridiculous?

I really don't understand these kind of people, why would they do that? What are they thinking? Is there any advantages of being mean and picky towards everyone they meet? But I guess they are really fearless eh, as they are not afraid of getting beaten up or losing their own property by the people provoked by them... If there is no law in this world, I think they'll be getting a trip to the underworld real soon... One of my friend told me that if there is no law, she wouldn't be old! I bet you get his idea, and it was very funny!

Are you a mean person? Are you being picky towards everything? Ask yourself, do you like people being mean or picky towards you? If so, have a nice day~

It's my first blog!

Hey, this is my first blog ever created... I'm still new to this blogging thingy... Everyone is welcome to give comments and opinions, any suggestions are great too! I'm rarely on my desktop PC now as I just got N900, and it's an awsome device! I'm starting this blog to share my thoughts with other people and hope they will do the some too. By the way, I'm JP, nice to meet you!